Now Introducing, Xila

For as long as I can remember, I felt a connection to Britney Spears. Wait, what? Ok, ok. Let me back up. I'm a mom of 3, with a PhD in Sociology/Criminology. Only child. Mom's a retired judge with an early career in drug and alcohol rehab, Dad's a lawyer. A typical middle class story. So how did I get here?

I've always felt, off. I could never explain it but there was constantly a sensation of discomfort that would run through my body. Depending on the situation, I would feel it in my throat, chest, stomach, pelvis. Which I later realized, at age 40 with a Backstreet Boys song triggering all the sensations at once, were actually a sign that my chakras were out of whack. I spent the first 30+ years of my life fearful of something. Doesn't matter what that something was, it changed by the minute. What matters is that I moved through life in a relatively low vibrational state. Then at 39 I accidentally ate a 50mg gummy and realized- HEY!!! I'm experiencing my spiritual awakening!!! And my mind was flooded with all things 'woo-woo'. There's astrology and tarot, chakras and meditation, frequencies and emotions. So I started by asking a 5D vibing co-worker if I was going crazy. I wasn't. I was just starting my fool's journey. Proud to say those ickys have stopped, but only a few months ago when I moved from awakening to integration.

My awakening didn't start in 2024. it started in 2011, entering my 4th year of grad school. Instead of writing chapter 3 of my dissertation, I read Behold a Pale Horse by Bill Cooper and Thanks for all the Memories by Bryce Taylor. I was previously introduced to Who's who Among the Eilte, by a classmate who spiraled shortly after giving me the book. Information from those books, combined with a strong foundation in classical sociology (does Karl Marx ring a bell?), and the crazy ramblings of Alex Jones, I knew society was f*cked. And by the end of that 2011 summer I settled on one thing - I can't wait to die to experience what's next. Never suicidal, just not scared of death. That gummy 12 years later made me realize I don't need to die to experience what's next. It is possible to see all things, do all things, and connect across time & place. It just takes a lot of work.

I believe part of my soul contract is to share my knowledge with you. To help you through your spiritual awakening. To be a one-stop-shop for those navigating their own Fool's journey. It has taken me a long time to figure out a format for this content. I have written pieces across platforms, started and restarted more times than I can count. But this Aries new moon challenged me to take action on my goals, and I did. I purchased the domain 5 hours ago and said here we go.

So what does this have to do with Britney Spears?? I think I share a soul with her. I know, I know- WHAT?! I believe in Kabbalah's 600,000 souls concept in my own way. I think I share a soul with 100s of people. Soul fractals are here to learn new things, fulfill different life contracts, all while sharing and contributing to a single 'oversoul'. Absurd? Maybe. Why Britney? My core memories incorporate her music and Crossroads. My senior quote was "I used to think I had the answers to everything, but now I know life doesn't always go my way." If I could have an entrance song? Easy. Circus. When I am ruminating, I picture a shaved head Britney with the umbrella to remind myself I'm spiraling. And when the 2025 new moon in Sagittarius told me to create an alter ego, I did what any Britney fractal would do. I googled Britney's alter egos. Meet Xila.